"For you created my inmost being;

you knit me together in my mother’s womb.

I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;

your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

My frame was not hidden from you when I was made

in the secret place, when I was woven together

in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my

unformed body; all the days ordained for me

were written in your book

before one of them came to be."

Psalm 139: 13-16

Monday, April 7, 2014

So you can hear it from me..

This was not the update I thought I would be writing today. In fact it's hard to even type out the words. Today, I was diagnosed with breast cancer.

I have had a lump that we have been watching for a while. The original diagnosis was a galactocele which is a milk cyst. I was still nursing at the time so we waited until 6 months after I was done and repeated the ultrasound. It was fine, and smaller, but on that exam the doctor found a new lump- one that I hadn't even detected myself. We've been watching both now for over a year, and three weeks ago at a regular follow up my doctor discovered that both lumps had grown, so I had biopsies done of both. The original lump is a benign fibroadenoma, and the one that my doctor found came back with atypical cells. This past Thursday I had a lumpectomy. Tonight, my doctor called and when the conversation started with "I'm afraid I don't have good news", suddenly I knew that moment would be frozen in time for the rest of my life. I know because I have been here before. Meghan's diagnosis day is similarly etched into my heart and mind.

I don't know much other than it is Invasive Ductal Carcinoma, and the plan will be to have a mastectomy and probably chemo. They are in the process of typing the tumor for hormone receptors. We meet with my doctor tomorrow to discuss the entire plan, and get me set up with I'm sure a whole lot more appointments. At least we are used to handling those:)

I am still totally in shock. Trying to wrap my mind around what this will mean for our family in the weeks to come is pretty tough. Uncertainty is something I am becoming familiar with, and if I have learned anything from having Meghan, it's that there is good in everything. Especially the hard things. We prayed before my surgery that the will of God would be accomplished. That whatever happened, it would be part of his perfect plan for my life. So my prayer now is that He will use this too for His glory, and that He will protect my family in the process.

Tonight I am resting in the everlasting arms of God. The one who Knit Me Together. I am afraid, and upset, and completely reeling, but I choose to believe that there is a purpose for all this, and I know beyond a shadow of a doubt that He will bring me through. After all, He gave me these two beautiful girls to help get me through....

"For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth, your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be."
Psalm 139:13-16

Thank you to Sarah Marie Photography for her talent and giving us these amazing images of the girls!


  1. Thinking about you Sarah. I know you will beat this. No doubt in my mind. Mike & I are here for you!

  2. My heart is so heavy for you Sarah, BUT I know His Grace is sufficient for you and His strength is made perfect in your weakness - because His Word says so! He has been faithful, He will continue to be faithful. You have my thoughts and prayers and any help you need with your sweet family as you go through treatment and healing. We love you guys!

  3. Sweet Sarah, this news is so heart breaking, but your faith in the Lord still stands and you continue to be an amazing witness of walking with Jesus through the storm. We are all praying for you here in AZ from the Richards' family. We will gather on Sunday and pray specifically for you, for complete healing and a peace from the Lord as you go through this, a peace that surpasses all comprehension. Also praying for Joe and the rest of your family knowing their hearts are so heavy with this diagnosis. Hugs and Love from Steve and Sandy Richards

  4. Sarah, I know first hand the feelings and questions you have right now. Please know that I am here for you in anyway possible. Miss you my friend. ♡Mel